Rambling Thoughts

I was reading through my journal, again, and ran across this. Reading through it I wanted to stand up and shout, "AMEN!"
Bad idea.
It's 2:05am and everyone in my house is asleep in bed, one who wakes up in three hours to head off to work. Seriously though.

I read through this and it re-resonated with me. I think that it's bad though. It's definately bad that I feel this way and perhaps I shouldn't re-write it for the world to read, but it's how I felt/feel at times. If you're offended by it: get over yourself. If you enjoy it: pray for you AND me. We need changed hearts. We need our hearts to break and step up to change this world so that it isn't this way.

I always have this heavy burden of being weighed down by the things of this world. The feeling only gets heavier and heavier on my weakening joints. I feel like the very sub-structure lurking beneath my surface is about to shatter. All because I'm in America... I think.

This last year has been one giant lesson for me, especially in that.

There's a vibe that everything "American" gives off to me. Maybe it's centuries old. Maybe it's a result of popular culture, western thinking, or Christianity in the states. I'm not sure. I just know that there's something "plastic," "fake," and purely idealistic about anything that's American. It's cheap. It's quick. It's easy. Almost like sex at a brothel.

What frustrates me the most is that the Church, as a majority in the U.S., has taken on American values and ideals. Granted, I'm not saying that the American Church is like a whore that gives into everythi--...

Wait.
I am.
Let me think about this...
Nope. Don't need to.

American Christianity has become a whore that rapes whatever it can to sell itself. To make a profit. To become so relevant to the point that it's reached conformity with society instead of standing out. It's like the American Church has become a business or corporation where the pastor is the CEO and all of humanity is now customers seeking product.

It sucks.

American Christianity = fake Christianity.

I know, I know. Those are strong words. And I cannot possibly denounce that some churches in America, a lot of churches in America, still "get it." There's churches that reach thousands and millions for Christ and for the Kingdom by what they're doing.

More power to 'em.

I'm just saying, it's time we realize we're better than that. The Church, unfortunately, is a lot like a whore at a brothel. America's raping us. And we're enjoying it because we're numb to it. What's it going to take to stand out, to change, to use "protection"?