Parting Ways

I leave in 16 days and it seems so unreal that though this will remain the place that I call home, it will no longer be the place that I feel like I fit. As each day presses on, I grow more eager to push the edges of where God is taking me. Strangely, I'm not even sure where all that is but I like to think of that as part of the adventure.

Everyone has asked me at some point as to whether I'm excited to leave or not. Of course I am but I have an incredible fear in leaving behind all that I call 'normal' for something that's completely out of the ordinary... and then knowing full well that the un-ordinary is going to become the ordinary and I'll come back and expect even greater things.

It's amazing the transformation that God has done on my heart in the last three weeks. I feel like He's preparing me for what's going to occur, but in a very vague sense - in a way that I cannot even put into words what I'm feeling at this point.

I guess the point of this is: I'm ready to leave. I'm ready to chase Jesus to new places that are outside of my senses and what I can comprehend so that I can come back here to the States and infuse others here. My problem is knowing that I already have this itch that I'm getting ready to scratch - only it's going to itch even worst after I scratch it, so I don't know how long I'll remain here when I come home. Fortunately, that's not for me to decide but that's something that I daily turn over into God's hands.

At this point, I'm fighting the desire to return to school and work on my Masters. I would love to be able to teach, do urban ministry, but continue mission work overseas. Yet that may not be what God wants for me. I know that I have the freedom to dream big and I'm taking advantage of that right now. I can't wait to see what He has in store for me over the course of the next year or two.

My prayer is that I don't limit God or myself, but take advantage of the liberation that I have through Christ to take the passions He's given me to the places most out of the ordinary.

Oh... and I still need $7000. Support me here.